Lord, Is This it?
Today has been one of those days when it seems all my emotions are in a windmill, going all different directions as I set here in my room and I look around and think:
“Lord, is this it, is this all there is, is this the sum total of my life, of my hope Lord?”
“My hope Lord is so fragile at the moment that it seems that all it would take is a breath and it would break into a thousand pieces!”
“Yet, Father, I know my hope is in you and in you alone, that my strength is in you? Who else can I go to, to whom can I turn but you Lord.”
“Father, to whom can I cry out too but you. You are my strength, my shield, my covering, my saviour, my Lord. It is you that is carrying me through this week as family is together.”
“There is none other than you Lord. You are the rock on which I stand and Lord though that hope be fragile, it is made strong because it is you.”
“Lord, bless my many friends, my fellow writers and bloggers. Help them to call out to you Lord, to find their strength in you and you alone Lord.”
And Donna, thank you my friend for the new link, you will never know how much “Stay Put and Abide In Me” and your other post’s today, strengthen my hope in the Lord!!
October 5th, 2005 at 17:33
My prayers are strong for you as I know where you are this week, right now in your life. It has been a gruelling time for me and I am thankful His wisdom and love shines through in many hearts. We are not without His gentle hand in our lives, but we must be willing to reach out and grasp it, take hold. Hold tightly Paul..and be blessed. Thanks again for touching my life as you do.
God Bless
Donna
October 6th, 2005 at 08:52
Hi Paul…Boy did this post sound like me! Is this what you planned my life to be like God? Why? My husband Chad bought me the book Purpose Driven Life, I’ve read it twice already and I still don’t have a purpose *lol* I do think he is speaking to my heart about a purpose, Chad and I went to Indiana to see his Uncle who has stage 4 cancer and surviving it would be a huge miracle….he does not know Christ. So I went to bring him to Christ. He did not except him on the spot like I had hoped, but he is close. Chad told me I was a natural at witnessing. It was then and there that I thought “could this be my purpose”?
I still don’t have the answer. But I am praying that he will show me more clearly what my purpose is and will be. I’m praying for you Paul! Hang in there!!
God Bless XOXO
October 6th, 2005 at 08:56
Hi Paul. I can totally relate to how you are feeling. Sometimes I feel as though I am being tossed by the waves and it’s all I can do to keep my head above the water. But I know God is there, waiting for me to call out to Him so He can rescue me. Stay strong in the Lord, Paul. He is only a whispered prayer away. Hugs!
October 6th, 2005 at 12:20
Oh, so sorry that you are down today…those days do always seem to come…sometimes it is darkest before the dawn as well. Perhaps part of it is the changing season to one of less light…we are under a cloud cover ourselves. But the scripture reading today was soooo good! Here are the highlights: I know that YOU can do everything! (Job 42:2) The things which are impossible with men are possible with God. (Luke 18:27)He does according to His will in the army of heaven and among the inhabitants of the earth. No one can restrain His hand or say to Him, “What have you done?”(Dan. 4:35) Abba, Father, all things are possible for You.(Mark 14:36) Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; but we will remember the name of the LORD our God.(Psalms 20:7) Be strong and courageous; do not be afraid nor dismayed,….for there are more with us than with him. (II Chron. 32:7). I like those stories such as this where the prophets were shown that there were many more “with them” than they had imagined! Even when we can see nothing happening…in God’s plan, something is! I wish you could hear this wonderful song that was written and produced in Israel as Gush Katif was being emptied. Not by Believers, but by Jews. The song was on “be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or dismayed”. A bunch of the men singers there got together and sang it…I will ask hubby for the link so you can listen to it too. I think you will find it a wonderful encouraging song!
Blessings, Elizabeth
October 6th, 2005 at 14:55
not one of us imperfect filthy sinners doesnt go through this train of thought. I always just think of how much worse I would feel if I didnt have faith in Christ and knowledge of a God who loves me so much He sent His only son to die for me. That pretty much snaps me out of it!
Prayers to you!
God Bless
October 6th, 2005 at 15:12
Thinking of you today. Carrying you in prayer while you’re weary along the path.
God bless you richly.
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October 7th, 2005 at 23:09
Here is hoping you will see this here, as this is where I spoke of the song and you responded…
Go to: voicesforisrael.org and then song is: Chazak Amenu… You can see the video, etc. there. Hubby says even on his laptop, though, he had to download it to watch it. Watch it if you can…seeing it is half the pleasure…all those men singing this wonderful song together…let me know how you like it too!
Your friend,
Blessings, Elizabeth
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October 11th, 2005 at 01:33
Oh good…I am so glad you enjoyed it! Somehow seeing a group of men like that singing their hearts out…is just so wonderful!
I hope things will settle down for you now and you can relax more…my heart goes out to you having to be in the same house with your ex-wife…too bad you could not have been elsewhere for that time…or at least parts of it.
I am not sure how scriptural it is, but years ago I heard Dobson say some things…about being somewhat “out of reach”…and he explained ways of doing that…only God could tell you what to do…I do not mean to try to tell you…but I think your situation has to be very very hard. Finding what God wants you to do must be difficult some too…in all of that anyway. Well, I do know HE mends broken hearts…however they are broken…but it takes time. I am glad for you that at least you can live with family…and your grandchildren!! That is a blessing!
Take care and God be with you, Elizabeth
October 11th, 2005 at 04:25