Don’t Ask!!
Sometimes it is really hard, very hard to admit that we are wrong. That the greatest obstacle in our lives at times is ourselves. I mean, who wants to admit that?
As I sit here this morning thinking upon the week. The one year celebration of Hill Country Thoughts on April 26, the events of the last few years I realized that I have come a long way. That the Lord has done a lot of work in my life. Yet there is much more to be done.
One thing that I have learned is don’t ask questions if you don’t want the answers, especially if you want the Lord to reveal them to you, those areas of weakness.
I asked one of my daughters a question and she replied to me “Are you sure you want to know?” and I said “Sure!” So she shared and do you know what my first reaction was? I became defensive, wanted to defend myself even when I knew she shared what the Lord wanted me to hear but did she have to be so honest?
Yes, she is my daughter and like the rest of my children, she loves me enough to be honest, to say “Dad, here is what I see” and for that I am very thankful. It made me introspective for the last few days. Caused me to think, to look back some and at the same time to ask the Lord’s forgiveness.
You see, it took the last three years to bring me to a place in my life where He wanted me to be a long time ago. He has and is bringing me to a place of staying the course. To see what He is doing now coming into being, to complete the task, to follow through.
It is hard to admit that your wrong. To admit that for so long you made a lot of promises but didn’t carry through. It has been the little things that have built up, the little foxes that ate the foundation of my life physically, emotionally and spiritually and that effected my wife, my family and myself. For that I ask their forgiveness.
I am not the same man I was three years ago or even three weeks ago. Since this new journey in my life a lot of changes have and are taken place.
There are nearly thirty years of the “little foxes” that have to be healed and the only one that can bring the healing is the Lord and I know that He has forgiven me and I ask my family, my children and grand children and Jodie to forgive me.
I ask you all my friends to pray for me. That in the remaining days of my life that I will reach the full potential of what the Lord wants me to be in Him. That I will be an example of a life changed and conformed to Him.
I know for once in my life that I am on the right path. That I am moving in the right direction and that my Father will bring me into the fullness of His purpose in my life.
The Lord will bring the changes if we will allow Him. He will reveal the things that need changed and He will use our families, our children and friends to show us if we are willing to hear, even when it is “something we don’t want to hear.”
Family and true friends will share what we need to hear and not what we want to hear. That is true love.
Thank you my friends and thank you my family for loving me enough to share the truth, even when it hurt, because of it, I can grow and become what I am suppose to be.
Till later,
Paul