Why Are We Afraid?
That is the thought that comes to mind as I am sitting here on the front porch.
Why is it that we as men are afraid to admit we are afraid, that we feel alone, that we are scared and hurting within!
Is it because we want to put on that smile that says hey, I am ok, no problem, while inside we are like a volcano ready to spew forth at any moment!
We men want to be macho, the strong one but I am here to tell you, we can’t always be strong, there are times we really need to let go and cry, let it all go when we come into the presence of the Lord. To let him know we can’t handle it and that we need Him to take it over.
It is good to have a friend, someone you can talk to and in Lewis, I have found a friend that listens, lets me get it out of myself and take it to the Lord. He does not condemn me or put me down, but rather he prays with me and for me. I am truly thankful for his friendship and for his family.
You know it is hard, after thirty-one years to have the one you love, say, basically, I am tired. I don’t want to be married anymore. To find yourself all a sudden alone, the children and grand children gone and you come home to an empty place night after night and it reminds you of so many events in your life and you pretend it is no big deal, when it is!
I am not totally sure why I am sharing this personal aspect of my life today. Maybe someone who is reading needs to know it is normal to have these feelings, these fears but also to know that in spite of how all this looks the Lord will bring us to a place of rest and trust as we go through it and He will bring us into a safe harbor and we can anchor ourselves in Him this day and find the peace that we need in the midst of the storms of life.
So let it go, cry out to your Father and let Him reach out and touch your heart and apply is healing hand to your spirit!
Till later,
Paul