“When Is Enough, Enough?”
Do you ever wonder, “Lord, when is enough, enough? When does it stop, when does the attack of the enemy cease?”
The answer of course is they never cease. We will always be engaged with spiritual warfare, with life’s battles.
How we react, that is the question! How we deal with the things in our life, the daily battles, physical and spiritual, the attacks on our minds!
The one thing that I have learned over the last couple of years, in the midst of the battle with cancer, with chemo and radiation, with two major surgeries (I am cancer free now), the moving away of our children and grand-children, the oldest and her family to Virginia and the two youngest to Colorado to YWAM, the divorce and the fire yesterday in Colorado.
I have learned that the Lord reigns. He is still on the throne and the only thing that the enemy of my soul has done is increase my anger and my childrens anger toward him and it has increased our faith and trust in the Lord even more, knowing that the Lord will intervene on our behalf.
I know there is a time coming when all that has been taken will be restored and the Lord will be glorified because I know that I am where the Lord wants me right now, even though the path has been hard, He is still leading and guiding and giving me the strength to walk this path, and it is His strength because I could not do it.
In walking this path I am becoming more intimate with the Lord. Learning to communicate with Him. I think that is one of the things we have lost is how to communicate with our Father and by doing so we have forgotten how to communicate with each other.
As husbands and wives, as friends, we have forgotten how to talk, how to share, to let each other know what we feel, of being honest, wither happy or sad. We want to put on a face, rather than be honest and that shuts down the flow that is needed with the Lord and with each other. There is nothing wrong in telling the Lord, I hurt, I am angry, I am mad. Most of the time the Lord, as well as friends can see, that what we say, does not line up with what they see.
It is one of the things that the Lord is teaching me. To come to Him, to sit and to just talk. He wants to visit with us, He wants to talk with us when we come to him in prayer, in worship, in praise. Even when we come to Him in tears, with a heart that is breaking, He wants to listen.
All these events in my life to date have caused me to grow, to become stronger in the Lord, not in myself but in Him. He has given me strength, He has given me peace beyond understanding, He has given us His Spirit to enable us to walk the path that we are on. Sometimes on the mountain top and sometimes in the valley, but the thing is, He is with us no matter where we are and we need to remember that.
So when is enough, enough? Most likely when the Lord returns.
In the mean time we must choose how to react. Allow defeat or victory? I am not a supersaint, I have a lot of friends who will tell you that.
Yes, there are days it seems like if the hole gets any deeper, I won’t be able to get out but the minute I turned to the Lord and say “I need you Lord.” He is there !!
He will never leave us or forsake us and in the midst of our tears He will comfort us!
Till later,
Paul